Inside U, Inside Me

Let me start this again.

I reintroduce myself. A million and one times every year. Remade, rebranded, bandaged in pains and gains and fuller, more hungrier for this feeling than ever. 

I greet you in the name of something new. Something I knew, and always known.

I write this for the hopeful, hopeless and painters of pictures in a mind letting love flow from your brain to your heart. 

I've been touched. I've been touched right. More gentle than I imagined possible. I've been smiling more, laughing more and more, more wanting that feeling of you. I've tasted a beginning of a whirlwind of the best and worst of you. From left to right, upper lip to bottom your fearlessness for the world. Come inside of me and see. All the tragedies blooming, the chaos meeting calm creating a beautiful storm, I think you'll make a home for yourself inside of me soon enough. There's a part of you I see in me and mine in you so it's only fitting. That I belong, wholly and solemnly to you as you swear to wear my love like armor. I fight your inner battles, aiming daggers at these demons you own, beating them out of you so you have no space for doubt, just me, just you, just us. So hold on to me. I write these letters for you to find, my greatest love, my muse, willingly conquered and perfected in every sin bodies could ever imagine. 

These hands of yours, they seem to find me. All my spots, comfortable with this softness, defeating my solid stand, melting it turning me to water, ever flowing with you in perfect harmony. From the movement of your hand up my arm, caressing the hairs on my body to the rhythm of your soul, the slow steady movement of the silence. This fire in your eyes when your hand finds the back of my neck. 'Draw me closer and find me unarmed. In your warmth, "Take what you will and leave me bare, for it is you I choose to die for in this moment."

Swindle me out of my heart lust. Dropping all inhibition for a semi-permanent heaven because I like to visit hell, and tell the devil of love being hotter than his home. "You should try it," I'd tell him. I'll live for every time I too am conquered, devoured on my knees and punished into submission with love, a little whip and commands when you tell me "You are mine."

"Yes." I'll whisper, in relinquished rights to my entire being, intently waiting for something more abandoning all concept of patience. A freedom that will escape my soul and body like an exploding orgasm.

Swear you'll never leave. You'll let me read you boring passages between my legs, because the stories there will be yours to hold, for you, by you and all the memories of having being bent, stretched, left quivering from them up my spine. I'll leave these notes for you to find. I'll breathe into them and fill them with everything I already know you are, what I see you as.

A Savior. Object of my desires. Truth serum at a crossroad. A 3am turn over between the sheets, comfortably wrapped in sin, sensuality, thirsty, pipping hot with emotion and knowing how to fill me up with your smoke until I can't breathe. 

Eternally owned.

Infinitely won.

A great transgression, happy as each other's prison and purgatory... Always.

Que: GALLANT -Gentleman🎶

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