ImagineMyThoughtsInWords

  So I wanted to share something I've been going over in my mind for a few days. Yesterday I got this picture which was a perfect representation of a conversation I had with, well, a depth loving person. I was going to speak about what this picture represents to him but I will instead make it a supposed "us" thing. I call this a Beautiful Chaos because of the evident conflict between the earth and the sky. To me this is a tussle between brain and heart, light and darkness, fear and courage, certainty and confusion. It is all the things about love that are imperfect but must be endured and experienced. He said to me, the lighting symbolized a form of communication between these two 'entities' and I agree. Brain is fighting heart on something they both know and have understood for a while now. I said to him, the world needs a balance. there cannot be light without darkness, no gain without pain, fear without courage, strength without weakness because each of these ...

  I owe you so much. A thank you, a lifetime of hugs and complete messages to remind you not to break my love. I have, on so many occasions given freely what belongs to you; to you I owe love. I have learned to live as if there's plenty time to feel, to endure, to laugh and be a person one of these days. I have lost and have not cried enough to unload enough. I have neglected the part where, unseen and unheard, you too are a living being. I stopped writing, completely discarded all the fire in exchange for a beautiful chaos with a face. I put my heart on pause thinking it needed to breathe a little and how wrong I was is evidence now of all the things that took and took and never gave back.  They left, all of them. They promised to be there, to show up, I thought maybe I was unfair and a bit too harsh or lacking in my manner. I took your love, I demolished it bit by bit and chipped away at it until I had a little left for you and for this I owe you everything and all what God ...