Ugh,Those Feels Again.
I've imagined my life with love these past few weeks. At some point, which is a point I'm still on, I'm running. The funny thing is, if you'd asked me what it was I wanted a month ago, I'd have said ''to be alone'', unprovoked and as blunt as I could say it. This one time, I went through my notes and found some old letters I'd written to a love that was perfect then. I say this because, I'm more of a moment girl now. There's a strange freedom and untainted peace in feeling completely, absolutely and certainly for that second or minute or hour. I found it disturbing, feeling all over again, all those "loves" that broke something in me. I'll admit this last one injected a little more fear. You know, it's not the fear of meeting someone new, or falling because it is bound to happen sooner or later. I have this fear of an impending doom. It's like setting in place a day of execution before the crime is committed and a s...